This is my original work i have created and written Title(s): Just drown/Don't drown. If you are unable to read the text, then it's written out below it :)

Just Drown

I will scream, and scream and scream
until i rip out my throat

I will cut through my veins so deep i'll get to my soul

I will swallow enough pills to drown in my own thoughts

Will you be there to save me from myself?

Will you come like you always promised to..?

Or will you prove that your words were as hollow as mine?

You were my love once, but you've turned into my darkest fears

I lost you, the same way i lost my heart

I was always trying to find it

But it was a hopeless journey

No wound i inflict on myself will ever describe the pain

I cry out, and scream even harder

Your name fades in my memories

As i suffocate in my words

My words were my last resort

But they only got in the way

And never across

I keep on screaming

Even though I've got nothing else to say

I'll keep on running

Although i no longer have anywhere to go

So should I just, disappear?

Would you ever miss me?

Would you ever look over your shoulder and ask "where are you?"

If it's all a dream

        it has to be a dream

Then please, wake me up

Where did you go …

I thought that I was the one who's gone, but I only got lost looking for you

Gone, everything is gone

Everyone is gone

I stand on this empty field

I look at my feet

And see myself sinking

Is it the emptiness that swallows me?

Or am I willing to disappear

In hope that you'll look for me in return?

No words can describe the way i feel

I'm not even sure if anything's still real

I'm giving up

My hope is gone

My life is over

If it was to teach me a lesson

I've had enough…

You were the one I thought could save me

But then, you became the one to drown me

Don't Drown

As I lay at the bottom of my consciousness

I hold my breath and wonder

Am I dreaming?

Am I drowning?

Slowly I stand up

My body heavy as if being pulled down

As I try jumping up

I get pulled down

I lay on my back once again

I look up and see light

I reach out my hand

As if to reach to it

I need to get up

I don't want to stay in this

I look down at my feet and see myself being pulled down underneath the bottom

Am I slowly dying?

Rotting away like a corpse

I go through life like a zombie

Is that all there is?

No, it can't be

I'm not going to accept this

I'm not going to stay in a place like this

I'm not going to suffocate here

"don’t drown" "don’t drown…" I repeat to myself as I slowly get up

I look up and the light gets brighter

The warmth lets me keep going

I jump once again, with the rest of my strength

I can reach it

I know I can

I will

I reach out my hand

And this time you were there

You are my light

You pulled me up when I was at my weakest

As you embraced me, I heard you whisper "don’t drown"

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Another text i wrote, it's about trust, and the way someone uses words, it's title is simply: Trust

Just a word can bring someone to tears

Whether they're tears of joy

Or tears of despair

Is our, and only our choice

A word of hate can bring someone suicide thoughts

But a word of love can push life back into you

There are simple, but also difficult words

Understanding them is only the first step to understand each other

Understanding the meaning behind the words is the second

And the way you take them in is the third

It's these steps that make, but also break bonds

But what if there are no words?

A moment of silence can make your heart beat as fast as a speeding car

But then it can also crash

Looking into your significant other's eyes can make your heart beat in joy

Unless they're crying

Then your heart will beat in sorrow

And then you realise how it's like to be hollow...

I called this one: "FAILED TEXT" because of the misunderstanding it created...

I hold my breath and everything freezes

In this dark and wicked world, i turn transparent

Don't look at me, don't look for me

I'm too damaged

I don't want to be hurt in a world of someone else's imagination

Tell me, please tell me

Who am i, when nobody's looking?

I stopped wanting to be held

As i disappear in my own shadows

Explain to me with your indecisive mind, how i should live my life

I noticed, every time you look at me with utmost dissatisfaction, your reality became covered with madness and melancholy

Three words from you, divided my world into two
"i love you" as you said with a hateful expression

we've come so far, come back
If only i could just erase it all
delete it from my recollection

I will fall until i reach the end of infinity

I will fall unconscious

Telling myself in order to forget, a diversion from hate

I will keep falling, keep falling, you're no longer here
all the lights have disappeared

I remember your smile

Keeping me together, when i descent into the never ending darkness
My reasoning no longer exists

Come, please come and save me from my fate

High in the sky with my mind
You're the only i ever think

It seems as if I'm an infinity away

Since that moment, that day, when i dreamed of you

You showed your now empty and hollow smile

Remember, please remember, remind yourself of the first day we met

I know it has been a while
But I'm sure, i know that you remember

i was more sad than you could've imagined
but you helped me get up

Remember, please remember that day
I kept telling myself "I'll keep waiting"
but you came yourself

with your pure and innocent smile
that i tainted

Do you know that feeling of rain?
not the the one outside
but in your heart

When it rains so hard you cry your eyes out

At a time like that I'd show you your pain

But all went in vain

It's too long to explain

But listen, please listen

The once forever raining heart

Is healed

With your cure

The curse you broke

And the happiness you created

We're meant to be together, it's fated

You told me that I'm the depth of your being

Your soul

Your mind and heart

"Everything I've got is yours" you said

But you forgot to mention that I'm your hatred

Your sadness

Your weakness and madness

I believe that what you said was not a lie

Our withering hearts changed on the day we met

Those weren't false memories

So remember, please remember

Slowly, tell me what it's like to love

I remember your scent

I take a deep breath, as if to remember

Not because I've forgotten, because i don't want to forget

It's all overflowing, everything is overflowing

You are a good person

But it felt like a coercion

Don't worry, I'll make it right

Everything we've been through

It's worth the fight

I wonder, what will we do with our lives?

What will we do for a living?

It's of no matter, for as long as we are together

My memories overlap one after another

Remind me, please remind me what was right

I need you

My memories are like pieces of a broken mirror

I can see myself in the parts

But i can't find who i am

I'm too damaged

Too shattered

By your side, only by your side
let me stay forever

Together, let's look at the sky

And remind ourselves of our perfect past
and then look forward to our never ending time to come

Because without you

I'm not going anywhere

so let's keep our promise of the moment we said "i love you"

With the spark in our eyes




--- Sorry for the long post ---