I wrote this story to share my thoughts about hypocrites, the title is: Blasphemy of hypocrites

Another day of fighting

Another hopeless moment

Here's another story that i'll be citing

For there is no point to stay

And my thoughts slowly start to sway

I have made no mistake

So what have i done wrong?

I aim to go with what i think and what i say

Like the bible said "reap what you sow"

But some people forget, that the saying is not just for show

How can people be such hypocrites?

They all know

But no one admits

Because everyone permits

Who's gonna stop a hypocrite? When they're all the same

And i feel so lame

To live on the same planet as all of them

Let's just go on with our lives and blaspheme

Although everyone has their own believes

They only turn to their gods for relieves

Because why else pray to a being

That only exists for as long someone's believing?

Eh, fuck it all

Reason to live? None at all

Giving up? Often the best choice

Everything seems an option for my suicidal voice

Kill yourself all by yourself?

Or take as many with myself?

The choice exists within yourself

Because

I'll fill my stomach with poison

I'll fill my throat with needles

I'll scar my wrist with your name

Because in your name i'll jump of a bridge

At this moment my life goes in a ridge

But that's a good sign, right?

Because if it would be flat

I'd be dead

It doesn't matter if i'm sad

I'll hang myself with a strap

Or just stab

Myself in the chest with a piece of your broken heart

Because it's no art

To break someone

But to heal them with your warmth

But

Everyday is another battle

And i'm tired of fighting

But this is war

And i don't care if i'm the last one standing

So this might be a goodbye...

Or a farewell

But it doesn't matter anyway

Because everyone's gonna die.. And that is what i foretell.. 

I wrote this story a while ago, it's called: 1000 Stairs of sin

For committing the worst crime

I went to hell...

I am welcomed by a bizarre and massive creature

"HUMAN, FOR COMMITTING YOUR CRIME, YOU SHALL BE PUNISHED WITH ETERNAL PAIN.

YOU SHALL GO DOWN THE ONE THOUSAND STEPS OF AGONY.

YOU SHALL FEEL THE PAIN WITH EVERY STEP YOU TAKE, WITH EVERY BREATH YOU TAKE"

Horrified i look at the creature.. "Wh-who are you? What are you?!?"

He looks at me with disgust "YOU DARE TO SPEAK!? HUMAN KNOW YOUR PLACE... YOU MERELY ARE A PAWN, YOU HAVE NO SIGNIFICANCE, NEITHER HERE OR ON EARTH!"

What is he talking about? You look around "oh... God..." you see souls being separated from bodies, and then burn in flames as dark as night "HAVE YOU COME TO YOUR SENSES HUMAN? YOU ARE IN THE 7TH DEPTH OF HELL, WHERE ALL THE SCUMBAGS, RAPISTS, MURDERERS, BETRAYERS, LIARS, AND BLASPHEMERS GO! AND I AM THE DEVIL'S - LUCIFER'S GATE KEEPER, THE HUMAN THAT HAS COMMITTED ONE OF THESE CRIMES IS FOR LUCIFER TO BE TAKEN CARE OF, WHERE HE WILL TORTURE YOU UNTIL YOUR SOUL LEAVES YOUR BODY, AND THEN TORTURE YOUR SOUL FOR ALL ETERNITY"

"oh god.. Oh god, oh god, oh god..."

I look around and start running looking behind me looking at the gate keeper

"hah.. Hah.. Hah.."

I run into something making a loud thud

I look up...

"what... How... Is... This... So big..?"

You hear the voice of the gate keeper

"YOU HAVE MADE THE GREATEST MISTAKE, FOOLISH HUMAN!!!"

I look over my shoulder behind myself...

And i see the massive gate keeper jumping, and then landing right behind me

Creating a massive earthquake making me lose my balance and i fall over

"I, BEELZEBUB SHALL PUNISH YOU RIGHT NOW!!!!"

He lifts up his 70floors high axe

And slams the bottom of it in the ground creating an even greater earthquake making me fly in the air

I land heavily on my back

-cough, cough, cough- i have trouble breathing from the impact -cough, cough, cough-

I try to get up but the ground is still shaking which made me lose my balance again and made me fall on my knees -cough, cough- i support myself with one hand and put my other in front of my mouth as if trying to stop the coughing

-cough, cough, cough-

I see the ground open right below me...

In the gap i see stairs... Massive stairs...

The amount seems almost uncountable... If not infinite...

I fall on the first step

"aaaaaagh!!!!" i feel my muscles being burned "aaaaaagh!!! What the fuck is this?! Aaaaagh!!!"

I try to get up but on the moment i touch it with my hands my hands start to burn too

From the pain i start rolling and eventually am on my back

And i look at the gap that i fell through

I see Beelzebub and his last words towards me were "HUMAN DON'T EVEN TRY TO MAKE A SHORTCUT TO THE BOTTOM, YOU'D HAVE MORE LUCK STRANGLING YOURSELF. EVERY STEP WILL BE BRINGING YOU DIFFERENT PAIN... PREPARE YOURSELF FOR THE STEPS OF AGONY"

Still in pain i look at the gap closing...

In panic of being here i get up and try to jump...

I obviously did not reach it... It was much too high...

I fall on your back again "aaaaagh!!!" the pain has returned...

I have no other choice but to go down... I get up and start running towards the second step... Which seems to be miles away...

I called this one: "FAILED TEXT" because of the misunderstanding it created...

I hold my breath and everything freezes

In this dark and wicked world, i turn transparent

Don't look at me, don't look for me

I'm too damaged

I don't want to be hurt in a world of someone else's imagination

Tell me, please tell me

Who am i, when nobody's looking?

I stopped wanting to be held

As i disappear in my own shadows

Explain to me with your indecisive mind, how i should live my life

I noticed, every time you look at me with utmost dissatisfaction, your reality became covered with madness and melancholy

Three words from you, divided my world into two
"i love you" as you said with a hateful expression

we've come so far, come back
If only i could just erase it all
delete it from my recollection

I will fall until i reach the end of infinity

I will fall unconscious

Telling myself in order to forget, a diversion from hate

I will keep falling, keep falling, you're no longer here
all the lights have disappeared

I remember your smile

Keeping me together, when i descent into the never ending darkness
My reasoning no longer exists

Come, please come and save me from my fate

High in the sky with my mind
You're the only i ever think

It seems as if I'm an infinity away

Since that moment, that day, when i dreamed of you

You showed your now empty and hollow smile

Remember, please remember, remind yourself of the first day we met

I know it has been a while
But I'm sure, i know that you remember

i was more sad than you could've imagined
but you helped me get up

Remember, please remember that day
I kept telling myself "I'll keep waiting"
but you came yourself

with your pure and innocent smile
that i tainted

Do you know that feeling of rain?
not the the one outside
but in your heart

When it rains so hard you cry your eyes out

At a time like that I'd show you your pain

But all went in vain

It's too long to explain

But listen, please listen

The once forever raining heart

Is healed

With your cure

The curse you broke

And the happiness you created

We're meant to be together, it's fated

You told me that I'm the depth of your being

Your soul

Your mind and heart

"Everything I've got is yours" you said

But you forgot to mention that I'm your hatred

Your sadness

Your weakness and madness

I believe that what you said was not a lie

Our withering hearts changed on the day we met

Those weren't false memories

So remember, please remember

Slowly, tell me what it's like to love

I remember your scent

I take a deep breath, as if to remember

Not because I've forgotten, because i don't want to forget

It's all overflowing, everything is overflowing

You are a good person

But it felt like a coercion

Don't worry, I'll make it right

Everything we've been through

It's worth the fight

I wonder, what will we do with our lives?

What will we do for a living?

It's of no matter, for as long as we are together

My memories overlap one after another

Remind me, please remind me what was right

I need you

My memories are like pieces of a broken mirror

I can see myself in the parts

But i can't find who i am

I'm too damaged

Too shattered

By your side, only by your side
let me stay forever

Together, let's look at the sky

And remind ourselves of our perfect past
and then look forward to our never ending time to come

Because without you

I'm not going anywhere

so let's keep our promise of the moment we said "i love you"

With the spark in our eyes




--- Sorry for the long post ---

First story i wrote today: Hate of feelings

I will scream, and scream and scream
until i rip out my throat

i will cut through my veins so deep i'll get to my soul

i will swallow enough pills to drown in my own tears

Will you be there to save me from myself?
will you come like you always promised to..?
or will you prove to me that your words were as hollow as mine?
 

You once was my love but you've turned into my darkest fears

i lost you, like i lost my heart
i was always trying to be

What you were dying to see

no wound i will inflict on myself will recompensate what i've done

i cry out and scream even harder
your name fades in my memories
as i suffocate with my words

i keep on screaming
but i've got nothing to say

i'll keep on running
but i no longer have anywhere to go

so should i just jump off a building?
run under a car
maybe drown in the never ending abyss
or even hang myself?

You reassured me that everything will be alright
but the next day you told me "let's just stay friends"

You reassured me that i can sleep tight at night
but then you tell me my worst nightmare

if it's all a dream
        it has to be a dream
then please wake me up

stab me with your words like you did before
strangle me with hope that you gave
and drown me in the pieces of our memories
 

Where'd you go i miss you so

Seems like it's been forever since you've been gone

Gone, gone like a shadow in a flashlight

Since then everyone's been asking if i'm alright

No i'm not alright

Everything's wrong

Why do you have to be gone

Come back i need you

No words can describe the way i feel
i'm not even sure if anything's still real

i'm giving up
my hope is gone
my life is over

if it was to teach me a lesson
i've seen enough...