This is my original work i have created and written Title(s): Just drown/Don't drown. If you are unable to read the text, then it's written out below it :)

Just Drown

I will scream, and scream and scream
until i rip out my throat

I will cut through my veins so deep i'll get to my soul

I will swallow enough pills to drown in my own thoughts

Will you be there to save me from myself?

Will you come like you always promised to..?

Or will you prove that your words were as hollow as mine?

You were my love once, but you've turned into my darkest fears

I lost you, the same way i lost my heart

I was always trying to find it

But it was a hopeless journey

No wound i inflict on myself will ever describe the pain

I cry out, and scream even harder

Your name fades in my memories

As i suffocate in my words

My words were my last resort

But they only got in the way

And never across

I keep on screaming

Even though I've got nothing else to say

I'll keep on running

Although i no longer have anywhere to go

So should I just, disappear?

Would you ever miss me?

Would you ever look over your shoulder and ask "where are you?"

If it's all a dream

        it has to be a dream

Then please, wake me up

Where did you go …

I thought that I was the one who's gone, but I only got lost looking for you

Gone, everything is gone

Everyone is gone

I stand on this empty field

I look at my feet

And see myself sinking

Is it the emptiness that swallows me?

Or am I willing to disappear

In hope that you'll look for me in return?

No words can describe the way i feel

I'm not even sure if anything's still real

I'm giving up

My hope is gone

My life is over

If it was to teach me a lesson

I've had enough…

You were the one I thought could save me

But then, you became the one to drown me

Don't Drown

As I lay at the bottom of my consciousness

I hold my breath and wonder

Am I dreaming?

Am I drowning?

Slowly I stand up

My body heavy as if being pulled down

As I try jumping up

I get pulled down

I lay on my back once again

I look up and see light

I reach out my hand

As if to reach to it

I need to get up

I don't want to stay in this

I look down at my feet and see myself being pulled down underneath the bottom

Am I slowly dying?

Rotting away like a corpse

I go through life like a zombie

Is that all there is?

No, it can't be

I'm not going to accept this

I'm not going to stay in a place like this

I'm not going to suffocate here

"don’t drown" "don’t drown…" I repeat to myself as I slowly get up

I look up and the light gets brighter

The warmth lets me keep going

I jump once again, with the rest of my strength

I can reach it

I know I can

I will

I reach out my hand

And this time you were there

You are my light

You pulled me up when I was at my weakest

As you embraced me, I heard you whisper "don’t drown"

Hope you liked it, feel free to leave some feedback

A story/song i wrote not that long back, its title: locked up bird

Locked up bird

In a rusted cage

Cries on and on

Till its voice is dead

Will someone hear its cries?

Locked up bird

Weeps on and on

Until its eyes are dry

Will someone see its tears?

Locked up bird

Shouts on and on

Until its voice is hoarse

Will someone hear its shouts?

Can you hear it crying?

Can you see it weeping?

Can you hear it shouting..?

Does it get through to you?

Do you hear what it's like to die?

Locked up bird

In a rusted cage..

Screams on and on

But no one hears

No, no one hears

No one hears a dying scream

It keeps on falling

It's just like a dream

Locked up bird

With a dying scream

That no one will ever hear

It sits lonely in a dark and forgotten room

Covered in blood..

The floor is about to disappear

And the bird will keep on falling

Until it crashes

And breaks its heart..

I wrote this last night, when i was feeling a bit down, hope you'll like it. The title: At Night

"The nights are the worst"
Is what she told me...
I agree
It's at night that our minds are getting the most negative way of thinking
Is it because we get tired?
Maybe the effect of the moon?
It's at night that we get lonely...
It's at night that we want to be held the most..
It's at night that we remember our mistakes...
It's at night that our hearts start withering away..
Because at night the silence is the loudest
Our thoughts... Our fears..
No one else can see our tears
It's when we open up to ourselves..
Just so we can wake up with a smile
Just so we can survive until night
Because at night..
That's where all of us fight...

a story, i wrote once when i was kind of depressed... it's title: Caged cages

Locked up bird, in a rusted cage

Cries on and on till it's voice is dead

I sit in this cage, with two other cages

Pointlessly and aimlessly

This cage is my room

My room that has me imprisoned

My room that made me want to die

Aimlessly getting up

And pointlessly falling asleep

My dreams

My stories

My emptiness

Are everything i have

But one day

One day i will say goodbye

And no one will ever hear..

My dying words

From this empty cage, trapping two more cages

Another text i wrote, it's about trust, and the way someone uses words, it's title is simply: Trust

Just a word can bring someone to tears

Whether they're tears of joy

Or tears of despair

Is our, and only our choice

A word of hate can bring someone suicide thoughts

But a word of love can push life back into you

There are simple, but also difficult words

Understanding them is only the first step to understand each other

Understanding the meaning behind the words is the second

And the way you take them in is the third

It's these steps that make, but also break bonds

But what if there are no words?

A moment of silence can make your heart beat as fast as a speeding car

But then it can also crash

Looking into your significant other's eyes can make your heart beat in joy

Unless they're crying

Then your heart will beat in sorrow

And then you realise how it's like to be hollow...

I wrote this story to share my thoughts about hypocrites, the title is: Blasphemy of hypocrites

Another day of fighting

Another hopeless moment

Here's another story that i'll be citing

For there is no point to stay

And my thoughts slowly start to sway

I have made no mistake

So what have i done wrong?

I aim to go with what i think and what i say

Like the bible said "reap what you sow"

But some people forget, that the saying is not just for show

How can people be such hypocrites?

They all know

But no one admits

Because everyone permits

Who's gonna stop a hypocrite? When they're all the same

And i feel so lame

To live on the same planet as all of them

Let's just go on with our lives and blaspheme

Although everyone has their own believes

They only turn to their gods for relieves

Because why else pray to a being

That only exists for as long someone's believing?

Eh, fuck it all

Reason to live? None at all

Giving up? Often the best choice

Everything seems an option for my suicidal voice

Kill yourself all by yourself?

Or take as many with myself?

The choice exists within yourself

Because

I'll fill my stomach with poison

I'll fill my throat with needles

I'll scar my wrist with your name

Because in your name i'll jump of a bridge

At this moment my life goes in a ridge

But that's a good sign, right?

Because if it would be flat

I'd be dead

It doesn't matter if i'm sad

I'll hang myself with a strap

Or just stab

Myself in the chest with a piece of your broken heart

Because it's no art

To break someone

But to heal them with your warmth

But

Everyday is another battle

And i'm tired of fighting

But this is war

And i don't care if i'm the last one standing

So this might be a goodbye...

Or a farewell

But it doesn't matter anyway

Because everyone's gonna die.. And that is what i foretell.. 

another story i wrote, hope you'll like it :D it's title is: Miracle is dead

Standing alone...

In front of that colossal machine

You look up at it as it charges it's most powerful weapon

You look and think "I need a miracle to survive this one"

You see your life flashing in front of your eyes

You're sure you're gonna die...

You smirk "heh.. miracle is dead" as you say that, you start running towards the colossus

You pull out your heaviest weapon which was attached on your back

"aaaaaaagh!!!" screaming you charge at it

"this is not where I'm gonna die!!!" screaming that, other thoughts cross your mind

If not for that event that made everything like this, you'd still be sitting at home wasting time on the internet, or playing games

"i hope i survive"

Finally the colossus' weapon charged and it fires

Making a horribly loud noise, you swear to yourself that this is not the way you're gonna die

Jumping up, you aim with your weapon at the beam

"DIE!!!" you fire one shot, the last shot in your clip

The strength of the beam from the colossus is so powerful the bullet of your customized weapon is starting to fly rickety

You land on the floor and realise that your shot won't be powerful enough

"i should've charged the bullet..."

You fall on your knees giving up...

Your life started flashing in front of your eyes

"i've always been alone... So it doesn't really matter.. One person less isn't going to kill anyone.. Heheh" you laugh at your own ironic joke

The beam is there

Erasing you together with everything about you and your memories

Nothing left, not even your existence...

No one knew you even lived...

They just forgot...